JW: Coming back to the intensive journal and an Idea

3rd morning of  waking up, making coffee and going back to bed to write in my journal … I am writing this to encourage myself … and you … to continue the daily log process. Looking back at the beginning of the process reminded me that using bullet points was helpful … it’s just a log.

One aha: There is a huge difference between what comes up from entrance meditations on Wednesday with the music and readings and what shows up in non entrance meditation writings.

IDEA: Maybe this blog is a way to share bits of our journals ... stuff that gets lost or overlooked along the way in between Friday talks and retreats.

here are some bits I harvested from reviewing the past several months and would love to have you share some of yours.

*** 7/25/23

Vision of a white board in an empty classroom where messages appear and disappear:

        You are your own one. Before you can spread out, you need to spiral in.

        

        You are your teacher.

        Spiral in.

        Wait.

        You are not done.

*** 8/1/23

I'm lonely, bored, ignored. 

    You're feeling ignored?

Yes, you're always working on Substack. I'm not having fun

*** 8/9/23

? When I die, will I have given my all or will I still be unspent, like money in the bank?

***9/13/23 meditation E&V

"May there be kindness in your inner gaze." -- John O'Donohue

*** 9/28/23

Anti-manifesto of shoulds ... 12 shoulds to re-evaluate and replace with

"if I feel so inclined."

*** 10/4/23 - Wed meditation with E&V

lifeless ... lifemore

wherewithal ... wherewithnothing

finding time ... losing time ... making time ... gifting

where am I going ... where have I been

this too shall pass, this too has been here, this too has made me who I am, this too is everything

of course there were tears

of course there was loss

there was also Richard

there was also Wayne, 

there was also others, some of note, some not.

there was always me and rivers and trees

always trees, always trees and flowers

and time and space

there was always today 

and has always been tomorrow

someday no tomorrows

someday no more flowers

someday a future I can't imagine

or maybe a void

or maybe avoid

sinking into nonsense

*** 10/11/23 - wed meditation

"Is there anyone there called the traveler

knocking at the cabin door

while his horse chomped the grass

of the forest's ferny floor." *from The Traveler but not perfectly

Above the clouds the sun is shining

Above the clouds of unseeing .... disbelief, disruption, disturbance, distribulation(?)

When the trees say nothing, we say nothing ... O'donohue

*** 10/17/23 - wed meditation

?Why is it important to be in a physically different place?